hi peeps, today darlingg left for Genting Highlands for a 3D2N stay. before she left at about 8+, we talked on the phone for a few hrs and managed to settle some unhappiness... :D so glad! hahha, well, darlingg didnt go to sch today lor, so shiok! but she missed out on quite some things too... ...well, today wasnt that bad compared to other days as i managed to clinch a nice 21/25 for a section of Geog P1, my v first time in 5 yrs. but i still failed the other section by a bit, 12/25, so total is 33/50, a B3. now anticipating for my paper 2 liao :D anyway, i also scored 62/80 for A math P1 and beat darlingg! OoooHooo! :D well, sch life really is different w/o her, suddenly felt quite lonely in class, luckily after sch still got tham john they all can go slack. hahaa, well, really cant wait for darlingg to come back, i miss her voice and he cold jokes! :( qing kuai dian hui lai!
oh well anyway, my bad results caused my much trouble too. firstly, teachers like ms lim talked to me regarding my results alr, after tat when i was home, i broke the news to my parents and in the end quarrelled with my mother. oh man,i dunno why did i become so defensive over myself, it was indeed just myself being slack and yet i denied it. aarghh! shit man, this feeling sucks, but i really dun uds why isit that ppl must always express their opinions and think that w/o saying such opinions and views/advices, the latter will not know of it? they keep telling me all the v standard stuffs which i know. its nothing new and it just agitates me further. im v disappointed over my math and really feel guilty towards mslim, she was a v nice teacher and v willing to give me a chance w/o ostracising me and looking down on me, instead, she gave me constant encouragement and made me feel that i can do w/e i want if i just put my heart to it. sorry for getting such lousy results, mslim, even though i know u will not read this post, but i still wanna say it. i definitely will prove ur judgement right when the results are out! :D i wont let u lose faith and confidence in me. thanks for everything u have done!
also, i wanna dedicate this para to vera. hey, friend who works hand-in-hand with me to deesiao junli! :D i know that u feel suckish thruout the whole day due to w/e happened in the morning. i do not know what happened but i know that its regarding u and jerome. dont feel sad! :D must cheer up and face ur probs with a smile on ur face! i suppose the teachers feel that ur results are not up to expectation and blame it on the r/s of u and jerome. i can uds how u feel cos i experienced a similar thing a month or so back. it sucked, honestly, but in this case, the best thing and action to do is to prove the teachers like mr TT that even though u are in a r/s with jerome, u are still able to attain good results! they will be speechless! i know im in not much of a position to say this. but bcos this is my last yr in swiss, i want to cherish all my "newly-made" friends. my results arent v good either, but i will work hard these last laps and strive for better results, i hope u would do the same too! :D sorry if i seem naggy, but if ur reading this, pls takecare and good luck for ur studies and relationship!
now, im finally gonna start on my improvised timetable for the last 4 weeks. damn, it is just so annoying to have to restart. aargh! :@ to my good friends and bros from 4e5 and 5n1/2, lets all strive hard for Os and prove to the teachers that even retained or normal acad students are still capable of attaining good results! tham, dont be disheartened. just do ur best. i know how u feel.
good nights to all! :D
